Have you ever been through a struggle, or a series of struggles that caused you to question your faith? Have you ever been mad at God for not fixing a situation or allowing repeated difficult situations happen to you/around you?
Recently I had been through so much struggle that I actually told God that I didn't trust Him anymore. So many different things were going wrong and I didn't even want to talk to Him at all. I felt a betrayed that so much was allowed to happen to me.
Let me tell you one thing. Being mad at God is a million times worse than just going through the hard stuff. Being mad at God leaves you alone and helpless. You don't want to pray or you don't feel worthy enough to pray. It totally cuts you off from your peace, your protection, and your comfort. Such a place of darkness.
I felt so unworthy, but I knew I had to repent and ask forgiveness. I said the words and I meant them, but when I prayed my unworthy self felt nothing. I didn't "feel" sorry, but I knew I needed to move on and move on with my Lord and Savior.
He always amazes me, but He began touching my life again, and He's waiting patiently to touch yours too if you're in a place like that. He'll bring meaning to you through His Word and He will touch your heart.
It's okay if you don't believe it right now. We all have those times and need to find the place where we will be vulnerable and surrender to Him. You'll get there, and if it's not too much to say, you'll be better for it when you do.
